Yes, I'm back, y'all ("oh no," I hear you groan!) Sorry to have disappeared for a while. Had my show Amaas last weekend, after Diwali, and then have been so busy this week sorting things out for The Bharatland (less than three weeks to go - aaaaahhhh!!) so have had virtually no time to come on here!
So I'm writing because I can't sleep. Again. Hence the title of this post. I think far too much - SO not good. And then wake up with horrible baggies under my eyes - again, SO not good! So I thought, rather than spending time lying in bed thinking even more, I would write. Although, now that I'm on here, I have no idea what to write about! So I'm going to pick some random musings I've had recently - I do apologise if it sounds like blabbering. It probably is.
I was wondering about trust. How much you can really trust, especially once you've been hurt a few times. We don't come into the world not trusting. I used to be a very trusting person, but recent events have forced me into thinking that maybe I was wrong to trust so much, wrong to put so much faith into someone else. Don't get me wrong, I'm not completely closed off (yet) but I'm pretty sure there's not a lot that can be done to ever fully restore that faith in people, to believe that you won't get hurt again. I suppose the one good thing about getting that hurt, to hit rock bottom the first time, is that the only way is up, and possibly no one or nothing can ever hurt you that much again, because you simply wouldn't allow it. And if it did happen, it would be a hell of a lot easier to get over it or move on from it, because you've already dealt with it once; so not only does it hurt less, you also know more about how to deal with it. Here's hopin'...
Love. What a beautiful thing. There are many people who have found it and many more people who are still looking for it. What I don't understand, is people who run away from it because they are scared of it. Scared of feeling that way about another person, perhaps because of the hurt; scared of admitting it; scared of feeling it too quickly in a relationship. Because surely, when you find love, you're one of the Lucky People, the few who have managed to find the thing so many others are looking for - and sometimes never find. How privileged you are to find love, to even feel love, for someone else. How can you possibly run away from it? Especially if the other person feels the same way. Now that's about as rare as a perfect diamond: they exist, but they're one in a million and VERY hard to find. And priceless when you do find them. Why would you possibly not want one, regardless of where in the world it is...?
Right, that's enough of my ramblings. I'm going to try to sleep now. Wish me luck!! Night y'all!
To attain love, you must trust, but how can you trust when you’re so afraid to fall?
ReplyDeleteIf you’re always closed, you’re always closed from the world.
Closed away from new opportunities, new people, new chance meetings.
Somebody who feels so alone, un-connected is ever more presented with situations of loneliness, never to find anyone they can really connect with.
It is a law of attraction.
But, having been so hurt in the past how can one gather the courage to trust again, to risk falling again?
There is nothing better in this world than finding that perfect somebody. Somebody who loves you as much as you love them.
Who complements you ever so well.
Who without them you feel empty and incomplete.
Is there anything more spectacular than this?
Could you ever desire anything more than this?
One has to live in hope. In hope that one day their day will come.
But there can be no hope without trust!
Hey, it wouldn’t be a bad idea for you to have your teeth checked before heading off to India.
God forbid you have any teeth pain whilst you’re away.
:-o